I'm in a funk and it might just be because I have only been with family for almost 2 weeks now...or it may be standard overwhelming expectations for myself. I don't know. I know its not good....it makes the day long and hard. I don't have the patience I should, I'm not as friendly as I should be, a little to quick to yell and snap. It saddens my heart and inevitably deepened the funk because the kids deserve better, my husband deserves better...I deserve better.
The problem is I can't pinpoint the cause...stress? Plenty of that, who doesn't have it? I now that's a contributing factor because I have been jaw clenching a sure sign of underlying stress...but it seems to be more, a little deeper this time, a little darker. I have been to the dark side and its not that bad but it needs to be nipped in the bud. I need to move past this funk...but the question is how?