Thursday, July 1, 2010

So long farewell, auf weidersehen good-bye

I don't do good-bye well. I don't like change, or loosing things so I tend to ignore the loss, the change, the thing leaving (worked great for getting over old boyfriends, other things not so much). For as good with words you all seem to think I am (thank you!) finalizing and good bye is not something I'm great with.

Today the last posts go up at Chicago Mom's Blog.

It's filled with sadness and a sense of loss that is surprised even me. It's not even the fame and fortune I received in my short time writing for them (I jest!).

Chicago Mom's Blog was the first blog I read. It introduce me to Stephanie, among others, as well as blogging. It made me realize that I could do something from home, that I could write and I did have a voice.

I applies to write for Chicago Moms in December or January and totally forgot about it. Assuming I was passed over. The have a ton of very talented writers and they tend to lean towards the opinionated and the political, I was afraid I wouldn't fit in. 

The second week in February my phone rang. I was still not taking calls, not ready to talk to anyone about what happened. It was an non local area code though so I had my husband answer it. He came in as was like, it's a Jill Asher from Silicon Valley Moms Group. Um, what?

I remember being genuinely excited and happy for the first time in two weeks. I am sure i sounded like a giddy school girl. I was astounded that a) I was chosen and b) that they took the time for a phone call! How retro! How personable! How awesome!

I may not have been a writer with them for long, but Jill and the amazing team of writers and editors she put together gave me a purpose/ A reason to write about something other than our loss. They gave me an external focus that I needed. 

I have had some amazing experiences and meet some amazing people. I am doing things today that I would not be doing if it were not for CMB and the connections I made. 

I am truly going to miss writing and working with them. I am going to miss reading them more. I was also blown away by the talent that the had brought together in one place and was honored to be a part of it. 

I know that Jill and the other founders (who I don't mean to leave out, Beth and Tekla are great too!) have made the best decision for them as hard as it may be for us to understand. That takes courage to jump out when your ahead to focus on things that are more important, family, life, etc.  

While there will be a hole in the blogosphere for long time with the closing of this community, they filled a whole in my heart and I will forever be grateful for that. 

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