Sunday, May 8, 2011
My Daughter's Eyes
These eyes are mirrors.
They show me all the good things about myself.
These mirrors reflect back all I fear, all I hide.
They are deep and dark.
They bore into my soul and change the way I see myself.
They have taught me about true, unconditional love.
They have taught me to see beauty where I saw flaws.
They have taught me to smile and embrace instead of criticize and frown.
They have taught me that the story doesn’t have to repeat, that you can create your own fairy tale endings.
My own Mother taught me many things, many lessons were learned through heartache and tears.
In mothering my own girls and battling my own demons and darkness I have come to understand that she loves the only way she knows how. She battles her own demons and her own darkness.
She has loved the best she can.
It may not be the story I dream of.
We may not have the relationship I dream of, but I have a mother, who has loved me the best she can.
I look into the mirrors of my chidlren’s eyes and I know that I may not understand her ways and she may not understand mine but we both are loving our children the best that we can.
I look in those eyes and I know, that I have a chance to write a different story, if I’m willing to see the darkness and fear and replace it with love and light.
These mirrors are amazing, and special, and I can't wait to see what else they teach me. No matter how hard those lessons are.