Thursday, June 9, 2011

Needs and Being Needed


I am needed all the time, all day long. (or at least it feels that way).

He needs me.

She needs me.

They all need me.

My needs are usually last on the list despite knowing that they should be first. Knowing that neglecting me makes it harder to care for them.

She needs me to sleep.

She needs the warmth of my body. To hold my hand. To feel my presence and breath. My scent comforts her, the weight of my hand on her chest relaxes her.

So I succumb to her needs.

I pull her into the crook of my elbow (her favorite place) and pull her close. I lie down next to her and breathe in deeply her baby scent marveling at how quickly its going. As I drift off thinking of the miracle of her and missing him I realize that maybe this is what I need.

Maybe she knows what I need more than I do.

Maybe she is being led by her angel to remind me to slow down, to rest, to cherish, to be.

I melt in beside her feeling her warmth, her heat, her breath.

My hand on her chest is the comfort she needs to fall asleep.

While I weigh on her body she weighs on my heart, pulling me down, pulling me in. Reminding me that sometimes you just need to be.

Simple BPM
Simply being needed, that’s my Simple Moment, Bigger Picture this week. 
What’s yours?
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Robin said...

Tears, joyful tears for this beautiful post all of us mothers can relate to.

Barbara said...

What a great post! I miss the days of baby snuggles!

Hyacynth said...

This is so beautiful.

Kerri said...

Yes - beautifully written! I found Bigger Picture Moments today - love it!

Heidi said...

That is so sweet! My babies would only let me do that when they were newborns. Once they got a little older (4-5 months) they only wanted their beds when they were tired.

Nicole said...

Wow that was beautiful:) We've just moved from living above my husbands parents, I've left my job and am taking care of my husband and our puppy and, even though we don't have children yet, jumping from a place where most things were being taken care of by the parents, I can relate to being needed more now than before.

Jade @ Tasting Grace said...

Oh what a beautiful moment!

Grumpy Grateful Mom said...

Simply beautiful.

Jen said...

My youngest is 3 and sometimes once she is {finally} asleep I wish she was actually in my bed all snuggled up so I could sniff her...the aroma that make the world seem right.



Ginny Marie said...

Such a sweet moment about a mother's touch...beautiful!