Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Radical {Just Write}


I’m feeling a shifting deep within my soul. A need to be more honest with myself. I want to make changes, BIG changes. I want to lead my family on a journey to live a radical life.

I look around at all this stuff. Stuff I need to pick up, clean, find places for. Stuff. Stuff. Stuff.

I feel the busyness engulfing me. Do more! Be more! Attend more!

The stress of a month where with out the surprises of things like new tires the money seems to just flow out of our accounts. Spend! Buy! Need!

Yesterday I did the grocery shopping and bought the gifts for the children we choice from the giving tree. I had more fun and enjoyed buying gifts for them more than my own children.

Despite how much we try to instill in our children the joy of giving as opposed to receiving the older they get the harder it is. The whining the asking the demanding.

Want!

Want!

Want!

There will be changes coming. Radical changes. I want to shake up not just my family but those that come in contact with us. I want people to see us living out the ideals we claim.

I want to get less and give more.

I want to simplify.

I want live smaller.

I’m tired of being like everyone else and doing things just because. It’s time to live my life as radically as my saviour did and that starts with shedding the stuff that is filling the spaces of my home and heart.


6 comments:

Jen said...

Oh Melissa, you wrote me...this very similar feeling has been nagging me for months...even before the Christmas rush.

I want to live like no one else...but always for Jesus.

Jen

Robin said...

I have been feeling this same pull, and have really been struggling in our household to keep a balance of living a more giving life without tipping the attitudes of our littles and sending them into tears over "stuff." It's seems like such a daunting task to get everyone on board with "mom's vision." But your writing gives me inspiration to stick to my gut! :)

Lenae said...

Love your heart, Melissa, and that you long so passionately to be more like Jesus. You are such an encouragement, my friend.

Jen said...

Yes! Thank you for your candor and your honesty! I feel you. I hear you. Yes yes yes! Good luck. Keep us posted. (OOh, bad bad pun.)

alita jewel said...

Oh how I get this, but we live within we "have everything we need and a little of what we want" and that is what makes my life feel so good in the long run. The boys hear the word "no" quite often, and they have heard our motto as explanation over and over again.

I hope that you are able to make your changes. Change is worth it!

xo!

Hyacynth said...

This. Amen.

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