I’m feeling a shifting deep within my soul. A need to be more honest with myself. I want to make changes, BIG changes. I want to lead my family on a journey to live a radical life.
I look around at all this stuff. Stuff I need to pick up, clean, find places for. Stuff. Stuff. Stuff.
I feel the busyness engulfing me. Do more! Be more! Attend more!
The stress of a month where with out the surprises of things like new tires the money seems to just flow out of our accounts. Spend! Buy! Need!
Yesterday I did the grocery shopping and bought the gifts for the children we choice from the giving tree. I had more fun and enjoyed buying gifts for them more than my own children.
Despite how much we try to instill in our children the joy of giving as opposed to receiving the older they get the harder it is. The whining the asking the demanding.
There will be changes coming. Radical changes. I want to shake up not just my family but those that come in contact with us. I want people to see us living out the ideals we claim.
I want to get less and give more.
I want to simplify.
I want live smaller.
I’m tired of being like everyone else and doing things just because. It’s time to live my life as radically as my saviour did and that starts with shedding the stuff that is filling the spaces of my home and heart.