Tuesday, June 5, 2012

First Cut {Just Write}

The first cut is the deepest cut, the one that hurts the most, digs the deepest.

The pain is new and fresh and you have to learn to understand not only the immediate but all that follows. Like the rings that ripple out from a stone dropped into water it radiates out into everything, everyone, every moment.

The second time, you’re almost numb to the pain.

It’s surreal, artificial, like it’s happening to someone else. You’ve already bleed all you could the first time, this cut just seems like a reopening of a scabbed over wound.

It stings, it burns, it’s uncomfortable, but it’s nothing like the pain of that first cut.


TKW said...

The first cut IS the deepest, but I wish there were never any second cuts, either.

Anonymous said...

New to your blog, but... ((BIG HUGS))

I've had one MS, I can't imagine what it feels like to go through it again. Sending positive thoughts your way. <3

Stephanie said...

Ugh...I'm feeling the pain of the second...though the first is the deepest, the second just reopens an already ugly wound...and it hurts like crazy. ((hugs))

Colleen - Mommy Always Wins said...

Aw...I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. I've been through a few myself, so I know those words probably don't help much right now, but maybe the thought that you're not alone does. :)

NLS 1993 said...

Love you. Thank you for sharing your heart.

Elizabeth Flora Ross said...

So very sorry for your loss.

christine said...

So, so sorry.