Thursday, May 2, 2013

Radio Silence

Breathe

Quiet.

It's where I retreat when I am overwhelmed. 

This space, my email, Facebook, twitter, my phone...they're silent. 

Quiet.

I'm okay.

I'm adjusting. 

Life is full of seasons. Ever changing, growing adjusting. 

I am in a season of busy. 
A season of sleeplessness
Birthdays
Functions
Housework
Children
Words
Commitments
Desires
Dreams
Family
Love
Self.

It's a lot, too much. Even too much of a good thing, a thing that I may love is still too much. When your plate is already heaping adding just one more thing, even if it's your favorite, can cause the plate to topple. 

I'm trying not to topple. 

I'm practicing saying no. 

I'm stepping back and closing doors. Doors that I may have opened for myself, for others, doors that lead to places I enjoy. 

But everything has a season, and for now I need to refocus. 

On me.
My family.
My passions. 

I need to sit back in the quiet and move slowly. One step, one project, one word at a time. Until it becomes the norm. Until I can talk without faltering, breathe without gasping, live without guilt. 

3 comments:

Jen said...

I miss your words but I totally understand.

You saying and doing this encourages others. I sometimes think if I say no I won't get asked again at another time when it might be right. Learning it is okay and I am not always in charge of how opportunities are woven into this life.

Bless you in the quiet.

Jen

alita jewel said...

I enjoy those places, too. And thank you for opening this door. It has been a blessing, friend.

I adore you.
Especially when you are silent, because that means that it is okay that I'm silent, too.

xo! thanks for one helluva intentional ride.

Alita

brook said...

Silence is golden my friend, may it bring you peace. And thank you for showing me what's important in life. XOXOXO

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