Write a Million Words

If I write here everyday this will become fiction*

I need to write, I want to write but balance has never been anything I was good at.  

To make a habit one must start and fail again and again.

So I get up and I write. Five minutes before heading back to the grind.

I will write the words
on the page
over and over

until I have a million words
and then I will write a million more.

Until I know what’s in my head,

my heart,

and I can find my way,

through the everyday.

I will write,

everyday,

until it becomes

alive.

I will write to feel,

to understand,

to be.

Not for a platform

but just for me

Five minutes a day is all it will take

to help me become awake.

To find the me that’s under the fog.

The me I have missed for so long.

*Elizabeth Benedict, Real Simple, August 2015, and the inspiration to begin to write...again, for me.